My Kind of Future

Tomorrow, I'm going to take my DLSU exam. Heh. Good luck but it's okay if it's bad luck. I'm not really aiming for a DLSU future, I'm aiming for a UP one! But, c'mon guys. How could you aim for something you know you're hopeless in? You couldn't, eyt? But if my fate twists an entire heap, my fairy godmother's wand swishes, and God throws a sackful of blessing ... then I'm off to UP.

the difficulties of responsibilities

Before anything:

Go Green Team!

Now for the main entry:

Dad's watching Star Wars in DVD now (what has gotten into him? Star Wars is MY thing). He's been watching the new series, the ones starring Natalie. That's the reason why even I was trying so hard to study in advanced chemistry, I couldn't focus because the Star Wars THX sound was reaching my room. You see, I have memorized the lines of SW characters and I couldn't help mouthing them and unfortunately, chemistry is not one of those lines!!! Temptations are driving me nuts.

Academics, the basketball varsity, the JS prom committee, the Student Council, the Green Menace, the films of the world (with which I will always think I play an important role to ensure their existence) How the hell can i balance them all? I'm not a superhero.

So I have to take them one at a time but it's so difficult whenever one overlaps the other. I have to abandon one to attend one. For example, I had to attend my basketball varsity training last Saturday but I also had to go to the Interact District Assembly. What I do is set my priorities. Here they are, in order of importance:
1. academics
2. student council / Interact Club
3. basketball varsity
4. green team
5. JS prom
6. fun. Hate to say this but this has got to be down here.

one of those days

I don't even know why I'm posting now. I don't have any sensible thing in my mind and I didn't even have an interesting experience to share ('cause we just went shopping and it's such a dragging narration to read about). I guess that's the beauty of it, y know, just typing and unsure of what will happen next.

It has been a busy weekend for me ... busy with foolishness. This is one of the days when I'm just lagging around the house the whole day and trying to take advantage of not having school work and social life intertwining with each other till I can't set myself free. This is one of the rare days when I lie on the couch and look at the white ceiling, contemplating on how i ended up there, that very moment, and also imagining the faces of people who I love the most and I know love me back.

This is one of those days when anxiety conquers me. I become afraid of the future. Its obscurity is the most frightening thing in the world. But what about the future am i afraid of? The foremost answers present themselves: the graduation day, the tears caused by goodbyes, the dreaded feeling of leaving my friends whom I spent every day of the last ten years of my life with, the arrival of college, and the unwanted independence that college requires.

after the tedious exams ...

I'm doing some of Dad's paperworks now. It's not really fun but if this would make me closer to Dad, I'd gladly to do it.

I was just from an interschool basketball game of the boys' varsity. Nope, they didn't win, but it was a close match - a really really really close match.

Our phone wasn't working for a week because someone stole something from the telephone box of our subdivision. As a result, I couldn't go online (yep, im still in dial-up connection)! Blech.

Anyway, all of my templates are original. I stayed up all night and dawn to create this and SOME people just go to template-giving websites and download to their heart's content. No creativity and and no sweat and no backaches while trying to code HTML with the dull Notepad.

Still, always remember: I love you all ... despite the fact that you make me happy and sad and ambivalent.

*smiles, frowns, and sleeps*